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Read "Serious Sentiment" or blog post "Envy & Wrath" first. So a few of you know that I was admitted to a psychiatric unit for a mental and emotional breakdown. While I was at the hospital I met several of the younger kids there, ages ranging from 13 - 17 with me being the oldest at 18. All of these kids would be considered "outcasts" or "crazy" by normal society but I didn't see freaks or losers, I saw scars so familiar to my own and lonely, depressed kids without any sense of belonging. Over the last few weeks I've become "Big Brother" to them and help them out in times of crisis. It feels nice to be with them, it makes me happy, it makes me calm, but that's the problem. I realized that this won't last and I won't see any of them again in the next few days because I'll be going back to school. Did I use these kids as a surrogate family for selfish reasons, or did I actually care for them and help them? This is a stark contrast to my usual posts, but it's actually eating away at me again. I don't want to leave them, I'll miss them, and I know it's inevitable. Is it wrong of me to have grown attached? Is this just going to hurt them? What about me?

2014-02-11 01:44:00 Author: Jaquan1254 Posts: 49

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Maybe go and visit from time to time like on weekends? ...glad to hear you are doing better too!

2014-02-11 01:52:00 Author: jwwphotos Posts: 11383

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Maybe go and visit from time to time like on weekends? ...glad to hear you are doing better too! Unfortunately it's not that simple. My group is disbanding and soon they'll be spread all over the tri county area. A lot of them are high relapse risk and have broken homes. I don't have the power to do anything about it. I can't do a thing to help them. I have the idea that one of them is going to do something incredibly harmful to their lives, I push it away but it's clawing at the back of my skull. This is why I asked, was it wrong of me? If I contact them outside, i'll overstep my bounds, but if I don't, I go back into depression. I really feel like they're a family, but the reality is, they're not... they're not mine.

2014-02-11 01:59:00 Author: Jaquan1254 Posts: 49

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letters or email?

2014-02-11 02:05:00 Author: jwwphotos Posts: 11383

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