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I Screwed Up: A Public Apology to Everyone for Everything

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I really don't know where to start, but a few minutes ago I got beat with the hard stick of reality, from three people that I would say are, I'm fortunate to say, are people that I care for.

I screwed up, to put it extremely lightly.

I'll start with a couple first, you know who you are.

At first, I will admit with absolute certainty I am happy for them. It was hard for me to accept that I could no longer 'have' one of these people, so I was crushed. It felt like my heart, if I even have one, was eaten by dogs. I hid my feelings in about 10 minutes though, to make the other person happy.

The truth is, I never truly moved on. I don't know if I can. Like this person has said, I am a very obsessive person. I have strong ideals, strong belief systems, but the thing that I am lacking is empathy or any sort of rule system for me to prevent myself from becoming the monster I am.

So yeah, I pretended to have moved on. The two could not communicate, so I was lucky enough to be their messenger, the middle man. At first, I was happy to help them talk to each other, but after a while, I became manipulative. I would restrain messages that did not please me. I manipulated words, I changed them around, I even added messages that weren't even spoken.

With good reason, they got fed up with me. If that isn't enough, I revealed a secret that I had no right to reveal. I acted like a grade-schooler who thought girls still had cooties. I acted like a little child.

To add to their frustration, I made an immature thread that asked the members to draw their offspring, with explicit instructions from the person to NOT make a thread.

Why did I do all this? I think it was a combination of two things:

1. Jealousy. I wanted so bad what one person had, that I wanted to spread rumors about them. Why was I jealous? Because I knew deep down that I will never get a girlfriend. Ever. I will most likely die a lonely virgin, and I accept that now.

2. Trolling. I have an INTENSE urge to reveal secrets, troll, stir things up, for purely my own amusement. I have done this MANY times, without any thought of why I was doing it. I just listened to the urge.

I am a hypocrite. My supposed values are the truth, peace, freedom, and love, yet I lie, I cause fights, I censor, and I try to tear love apart. I hate hypocrites. I despise them. I call other people them, always denying that I am really one. I hate hypocrites. I hate the monster that I am.

To this other person, who has always been there before me, and has helped me get where I am today, I'm so sorry.

I created a innocent-intention thread about being able to convey message without words, but I created something much more out of that thread.

I started turning it into an anti-censorship thread, without thinking about how this person would feel. This thought truly never dawned on me until I recieved a PM with the title being something similar to "Stop this BS you have been creating". It hit me as a shock.

Why the shock? I have known deep down that I have never been a good moderator. Not only do I rarely moderate others, I often go against the rules myself and try to cover my flaws with my power. I have been abusive. With power.

I HATE tyrants. Yet I have become one??? What is this? I am such a hypocrite, and I just realized it all. What is wrong with me? This has happened to me many times on the internet, yet I never seem to learn. Until now. Knowing me, I will probably forget all I have learned. I am that much of a hypocrite that I would say "I'm so sorry! I'll never do it again!!" and do it again in a minute.

I'm sorry. To everyone. Not just these people I have referred to.

You can forgive me if you think I deserve your pity, but I personally don't think I do.

I need a time out. Yet, being a hypocrite, I will probably be back very soon. I don't know if I can contain the monster that I am.

This is probably the only honest thing I have ever said:

I Screwed Up.		2008-11-30 00:05:00

Author:
Unknown User

Dude, are you talking about the whole Mouse/Code thing, or am I missing something bigger?

And, I forgive you for not "accepting" me as the Christian I am, I did so a very long time ago 		2008-11-30 00:13:00

Author:
Stix489
Posts: 2080

It is much more.

It is about who I am : a hypocrite.

EDIT: I finally had the guts to read the third person's PM.

And it isn't good, to say the least.

If I have permission, I will say what it says.		2008-11-30 00:14:00

Author:
Unknown User

Wow..... I think your a great person, everyone has flaws man, I hope your time off is beneficial2008-11-30 00:17:00

Author:
Gondito
Posts: 1082

Ok. I'm going to say it.

Cartman threatened me to stop or he will take away my mod status.

If you think it wasn't serious before, now you do.		2008-11-30 00:23:00

Author:
Unknown User

Ok. I'm going to say it.

Cartman threatened me to stop or he will take away my mod status.

If you think it wasn't serious before, now you do.

Okay, but I don't even understand what happened, exactly :/

I'm pretty sure I missed something bigger than big...O_o

Also, speaking of reality checks, I had one myself no too long ago, and it's not pretty.		2008-11-30 00:26:00

Author:
Stix489
Posts: 2080

I was being a smartass to Reshin just because he does not hold my views.

To quote Cartman himself:

"Seriously, stop replying with images and stop being such a smartass, to Reshin and everyone else. Do it again and I'll pull your Mod status."

I deserve it.		2008-11-30 00:28:00

Author:
Unknown User

Ok. I'm going to say it.

Cartman threatened me to stop or he will take away my mod status.

If you think it wasn't serious before, now you do.

I didnt say u werent being serious, if your even talking to me,
your a cool guy, Marino. just do what you need to.		2008-11-30 00:28:00

Author:
Gondito
Posts: 1082

Well, you're not me, obviously, so I may not be accurate, but I may feel some things you're going through. We both apparrently have the same condition, so I may be able to understand a bit of what you're going through- or maybe not, I've not never good at figuring out what people are thinking beneath the surface or whatever.

I know that you may not have realized you were angering these people, or maybe you were- I came to a fully rationalized conclusion these past few days that, well, I'm even more pathetic than I ever thought I would be. Or something. Long story.

Anyway, it seems you are upset that you didn't realize you were upsetting these people- am I not correct? Sometimes I do things to people that many would consider stupid - myself as well. While it's probably more stupid then what you may have done- I am, afterall, a rather weird individual- I may understand how you may not have saw what you were doing. Perhaps. I think it's the ame principle...

Anyway, um, I kinda noticed you... were an odd mod. While some seemed to be wise or something, you did always make topics that abuse the rules... And I guess I thought that this was because we were a community, and mods were just regular members of the community, but hey, what do I know...

I know this post may not be of any solace- the only solace that makes any sense of this post is that I may be going through some of the same things as you, but I guess that's not much solace, huh, knowing you may be like me >_<.		2008-11-30 00:28:00

Author:
RockSauron
Posts: 10882

I'm missing something huge O_O

But it's alright man.. If I'm honest I'm pretty manipulative at times, I can be a bully, and I love to embarass people..

Only thing is, I love me for it It's who I am. If people don't like it, well.		2008-11-30 00:30:00

Author:
DrunkMiffy
Posts: 2758

I do not need solace. I need the truth.

If there is anything I need to know, no matter how harsh it is, please let me know.

It is time I face all the things I have neglected. I need to be humbled.

It is strange, I knew I was causing things, but I never seemed to care. I just put others off for being 'ignorant'. 		2008-11-30 00:31:00

Author:
Unknown User

You were probably too harsh on yourself there, but it's good you realized that you were being that way. It may hurt, but it's for the better and will hopefully make this a much better forum for us all in the future. Remember those friends who sent you those pms, because they are true friends. I know if I ever started being a jerk I'd want my friends to tell me.

Was that as corny as it sounded in my head? Because I was trying to be serious.		2008-11-30 00:35:00

Author:
BassDeluxe
Posts: 984

I do not need solace. I need the truth.

If there is anything I need to know, no matter how harsh it is, please let me know.

It is time I face all the things I have neglected.

It is strange, I knew I was causing things, but I never seemed to care. I just put others off for being 'ignorant'.

Well, if you want the truth, I always did think you were kinda forceful... Well, with anything related to religion or something... Like, as you said, thinking your way was the only possible way, and, as you said, just putting them off as ignorant.

As for the other thing, I can't say anything, since I haven't been here much the past few days (was pretty much blowing through a game O_O), not that it would be any amount of time of inactivity for anyone to notice, plus I probably wouldn't notice anyway, so I have no knowledge of this going on, so... I guess all I could say for that is... you were mean, if what you said is true? >_<

Anyway, you were always acting all high and superior in a way because you don't believe in god, and then you always seemed to abuse your powers as a mod by making pointless topics and, well, I'm not sure if I actually ever saw you do anything modly, though I probably am mistaken.

Anyway, that's the truth I guess... Yep.		2008-11-30 00:38:00

Author:
RockSauron
Posts: 10882

I do not need solace. I need the truth.

If there is anything I need to know, no matter how harsh it is, please let me know.

It is time I face all the things I have neglected. I need to be humbled.

It is strange, I knew I was causing things, but I never seemed to care. I just put others off for being 'ignorant'.

Well, it is rather obvious in my case...

You called me ignorant for believing in Christianity and not accepting evolution to the extent in which you do. I told you I respected your beliefs but your reply was that you didn't respect mine, since you loathe religion.

That is the only thing that I disliked about you, but me being me, I can never ever hold grudges, and a few minutes after that MSN conversation, I forgave you. That's pretty much it.

The rest of the Marino I know is a great guy. Really.		2008-11-30 00:39:00

Author:
Stix489
Posts: 2080

Ok.

I should probably make a list of things I did wrong and how I can better myself in the future:

1. Religion & Politics- STOP. No matter how hard it may be, respect all viewpoints. Do not even discuss it.

2. Pointless Topics- STOP. If it doesn't have a point; it shouldn't be a thread. No Hiro or Knut-esque topics anymore. Keep that in the Spam Can.

3. Posts- THINK. Before posting, think about how that post will affect others. It is not just what I think is funny.

4. Sarcasm- STOP. If I don't really believe what I say, don't say it. No more double meaning posts. Be straightforward.

5. Trolling- STOP. Even if I see a 'lulzworthy' way to stir up the thread at hand, don't.

6. Personal Information- STOP. If someone wants to tell me something, I will. Don't beg for it. If they do, do NOT give it to others.

7. Ego Posts - STOP. Although I have thought so my entire life, I am really no better than anyone else. No matter their race, class, sex, or education. People are people. Treat them as such.

Feel free to add to the list.		2008-11-30 00:42:00

Author:
Unknown User

I know you may want to change now (@ list above) but changing yourself for the better isn't as easy (or as great) as it sounds.

I tried, and gave up. I'm content the way I am. You just have to learn to differentiate peopulz from your friends.		2008-11-30 00:44:00

Author:
DrunkMiffy
Posts: 2758

Yeah, but the thing is, is that I hurt my best friend on here the most.

I always seem to hurt those around me the most. 		2008-11-30 00:48:00

Author:
Unknown User

I'm not gonna get too involved in this thread, seeing as I have no idea what the hell this is all about, but ;

This is basically Marino making an apology - From where I stand, no harm in it. This thread will not turn into some kind of flame war, or accusations or whatever. If you've got nothing worthwhile to say, don't post.

I'm not taking sides in what this is all about either (seeing as I've missed everything up until this thread), but I could see this somehow going face first..		2008-11-30 00:51:00

Author:
DrunkMiffy
Posts: 2758

No Miff, I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of being a troll.

I'm so sick of it all.

I really doubt I will ever be able to act that way again, knowing how much I am hurting right now due to all the pain I've caused.

I have become a new person, I can feel it. I will look back on the fool I have been and laugh.

I needed this. This has all been building in me long before I joined LBPC.

I needed this.		2008-11-30 00:55:00

Author:
Unknown User

It'll pass, it always does. Hopefully those you've hurt will forgive. Maybe they will, maybe they won't. Not my place to say.

At least you can see what you've done though.. Shows you're trying.		2008-11-30 00:59:00

Author:
DrunkMiffy
Posts: 2758

Marino...We forgive you.

Come on everyone, post that you forgive Marino, it's the only way he'll truly know that isn't the worst person ever.

I love you Marino :3		2008-11-30 01:03:00

Author:
Stix489
Posts: 2080

The couple has already forgiven me.

I have told them that I will never be that monster again, because it will make me physically sick.

Hopefully they will post.		2008-11-30 01:03:00

Author:
Unknown User

I forgive you Marino, and if it means anything, I think you can change.2008-11-30 01:11:00

Author:
BassDeluxe
Posts: 984

Thank you Bass, I really appreciate it.

I think so aswell, I already feel like I have been reborn, being careful about everything I say. 		2008-11-30 01:14:00

Author:
Unknown User

don't be too careful, please :3 that's who you are2008-11-30 01:15:00

Author:
Go,Mouse!
Posts: 388

Marino, we forgive you, okay.

Here's how things went down, for those who are curious:

Mouse went on vacation. About a week ago we had both admitted to liking each other. Mouse went on vacation this week, and I thought Marino deserved to know. He was upset at first of course, I was kind of disturbed by it, but I thought he would get over it. I didn't realize how serious an impact it had on him, and I thought everything was over when he told me he had gotten over mouse.

I started to miss mouse, that's understandable, I hadn't seen her in a few days. So I asked Marino to text her for me. (I don't have free texting, he does) He texted her for me, and didn't tell her exactly what I said, and he didn't tell me exactly how she replied. I probably shouldn't have asked him, tbh.

Then, he decided to reveal this all to everyone, w/o my permission. I wouldn't have gotten mad if he told everyone with my and mouses permission, but he didn't. I deleted a few threads and posts, such as the "Make a Picture of what Mouse and Code's baby will look like" thread, but eventually, I gave up.

Then, mouse came back, and I felt she had the right to know what had been going on. We sorted out he had been lying to us, but we were not angry with him. We told him this, and he went off and made this thread.

Though I don't think it was just that incident that sparked this thread,there were other factors, though I'm not exactly sure what those are.		2008-11-30 01:17:00

Author:
Code1337
Posts: 3476

1. Congrats, its never easy to say sorry in public
2. Even with your ignorance, its a christian's job to forgive those who ask
3. Give up your mod status. Its hard for those with a big ego to give up power, show you don't have one

(the 3rd kind of loses its meaning since I'm daring you to do it, but its the noble thing to do)		2008-11-30 01:51:00

Author:
Reshin
Posts: 1081

I'd be willing to take a temporary break from modship if necessary.

I have changed though, so I don't see the urgent need. Let other mods decide what is best. I trust them to do what is best for the forums. 		2008-11-30 01:54:00

Author:
Unknown User

I'd be willing to take a temporary break from modship if necessary.

I have changed though, so I don't see the urgent need. Let other mods decide what is best. I trust them to do what is best for the forums.

forgive me for being devil's advocate but I'm not hearing a "yes I'm willing"...

(and as much as I trust the mods, you have influence, most likely they'll let you keep going a mod)

What I'm suggesting you do isn't really easy, but hey it will prove your a changed man.		2008-11-30 02:11:00

Author:
Reshin
Posts: 1081

As I said, if they see that it would be to the benefit of the well-being of the forum for me to step down, yes, I am willing to.

I guess I just worded it wrong? Sorry. 		2008-11-30 02:14:00

Author:
Unknown User

forgive me for being devil's advocate but I'm not hearing a "yes I'm willing"...

(and as much as I trust the mods, you have influence, most likely they'll let you keep going a mod)

What I'm suggesting you do isn't really easy, but hey it will prove your a changed man.

Right now it seems to me you're just trying to get rid of Marino because you don't like him. It'd be one thing if he couldn't admit he had a problem or couldn't see it, but he has admitted it and is already showing signs of improvement. I think we need to give it some time to play out and if it becomes an issue again then he might consider stepping down.		2008-11-30 02:19:00

Author:
BassDeluxe
Posts: 984

Thank you Bass.

Like you said, Cartman said if I don't stop, THEN my rights will be provoked. I have stopped.

But yes, it is ultimately up to the rest of the staff, so I will face their judgement with no hard feelings. 		2008-11-30 02:23:00

Author:
Unknown User

As I said, if they see that it would be to the benefit of the well-being of the forum for me to step down, yes, I am willing to.

I guess I just worded it wrong? Sorry.

no no I got it,(It was I who should of worded his statement wrong)

basically, your missing the whole point of what I'm saying

"I'm willing to give it up if the other mods see it will be better that way" is different from "I'm giving it up"

Its pretty common logic with the forum being in its state, and your connections with some mods that they will decide your going to be a mod (I'm about 80% sure).

I want to see a pure "I'm giving up modding, no questions ask" like Malt did, as I said those with a big ego hate to lose power. Sorry again for being devil's advocate...


Right now it seems to me you're just trying to get rid of Marino because you don't like him. It'd be one thing if he couldn't admit he had a problem or couldn't see it, but he has admitted it and is already showing signs of improvement. I think we need to give it some time to play out and if it becomes an issue again then he might consider stepping down.

As I said I'm being a devil's advocate, part of what made him want to change was a threat by CC of revoking his mod status, I want to be 100% sure it was his desire to change not his mod status being in danger, is what caused this post.		2008-11-30 02:26:00

Author:
Reshin
Posts: 1081

Holy crap, I left to the mall and I come back and I find this? I guess I have an apology as well, not as big as this one but still should apologize.

Code and Mouse: My bad, I only thought Marino was joking, he always makes those funny posts so I didn't take him seriously when he said what he did ( plus it was in the Spam Can, adding to the "not-serious" deal.

But anyways, yeah I'm sorry if I did anything to get you mad Code seeing as Mouse was still on her vacation.

Marino: Remember? Long time ago, we were in that one paint place? ( God how can I forget it's name, oh well ) But yeah, I told you I was a Christian and you laughed and all that, just wanted to tell you that I didn't think of you differently when you didn't care about my beliefs or whatever, so what I'm trying to say is, if you don't think I forgive you, I never needed to forgive you because I was never angry at you.

Last line I swear : I really hope you do change Sometimes, change is for the better.		2008-11-30 02:28:00

Author:
Whalio Cappuccino
Posts: 5250

Man, haha.

Remember? I didn't have the guts to read his PM until the post where I said:



EDIT: I finally had the guts to read the third person's PM.

And it isn't good, to say the least.

If I have permission, I will say what it says.

I truly felt horrible, and that was what sparked this thread.



Last line I swear : I really hope you do change Sometimes, change is for the better.

I already have man, I already have. I had a breakthrough before I wrote this post. For at least 15 minutes, I sat in a silent room with my eyes closed just thinking, being completely honest with myself, putting my bloated ego beside me, and ultimately I destroyed it. All it did was drag me down to belittle others who weren't as 'of my quality'. Now I see how much of an fool that made me. I now look back and smile, for I have improved myself. It wasn't easy, but I did it.

I am a new man. I am a new moderator. Most important of all, I am a new friend. :arg:		2008-11-30 02:29:00

Author:
Unknown User

Remember? I didn't have the guts to read his PM until the post where I said:

I truly felt horrible, and that was what sparked this thread.

As you say the threat came after this thread, but their is no evidence that thats how it happend.

You said it yourself your sorry for how you acted and want to start over, give up your mod status then. No person with a big ego can give up power (Although I'm daring you so it loses its meaning but hey, worth a shot).

Even if you weren't threatend if you really are a change man who deflated his huge ego (not easy for that matter) prove it.

-sry for being devil's advocate (I think I need to repeat this in all posts to keep people from jumping on me)		2008-11-30 02:40:00

Author:
Reshin
Posts: 1081

Does that mean...

IT'S HUG TIME? 		2008-11-30 02:41:00

Author:
Stix489
Posts: 2080

Reshin.

The reason I want to continue being a moderator is because I want to benefit these forums. It has absolutely nothing to do with ego. Moderators have to do a lot of work, it isn't exactly a ego-boosting job with all the members expecting so much of you. Moderation isn't a popular occupation, it is volunteer work. I want to help. I want to volunteer.


Does that mean...

IT'S HUG TIME?

HUG.

I'm so sorry how I was man, I'm glad you can forgive me. :arg:		2008-11-30 02:44:00

Author:
Unknown User

Lol, Tyler and "Huggy Time"2008-11-30 02:44:00

Author:
Whalio Cappuccino
Posts: 5250

HUG.

I'm so sorry how I was man, I'm glad you can forgive me. :arg:

Of course I can forgive you man, how can I not? You're bloody Marino, you're my RPG buddy 		2008-11-30 02:48:00

Author:
Stix489
Posts: 2080

<:3 )~2008-11-30 02:48:00

Author:
Go,Mouse!
Posts: 388

Lol, Tyler and "Huggy Time"

/puts harpoon down.

I'm sorry for all those times when I ate your brothers and sisters. I really do think we can exist in a symbiotic relationship in the seas. :arg:

HUG? 		2008-11-30 02:51:00

Author:
Unknown User

Reshin.

The reason I want to continue being a moderator is because I want to benefit these forums. It has absolutely nothing to do with ego. Moderators have to do a lot of work, it isn't exactly a ego-boosting job with all the members expecting so much of you. Moderation isn't a popular occupation, it is volunteer work. I want to help. I want to volunteer.

Ah, but I never said its an ego boosting job, I said people with it refuse to give up power. Sure I'm causing alot of trouble for asking the mods and the admins to find your replacement, and I'm sry in advance. Their are other ways to help the community than be a mod, but giving up your modship is pure proof you have changed.

-sorry for being a devil's advocate		2008-11-30 02:56:00

Author:
Reshin
Posts: 1081

/puts harpoon down.

I'm sorry for all those times when I ate your brothers and sisters. I really do think we can exist in a symbiotic relationship in the seas. :arg:

HUG?

Oh my god! The time has come, this is proof he has changed! Hug me!!

http://farm1.static.flickr.com/162/364931966_abac1e81ce.jpg?v=0

Don't even ask how I found that picture...		2008-11-30 02:58:00

Author:
Whalio Cappuccino
Posts: 5250

Marino: Thank you. This is the best thing you could have possibly done. You admitted you were wrong, you acknowledged your mistake, and you decided to improve yourself. That's a very hard thing to do, and I admire the fact that you had the courage to do it. However, I think to truly step back and take a look at yourself, you need as little to do with site management as possible; at least temporarily. Here's what I'm suggesting: take a break. I'll pull your mod status temporarily, and we'll see how you handle yourself. If I see that you are trying to change, I'll reinstate it, no questions asked. I believe you want to do this, but I need to see it in action before I can decide if you want it bad enough. What do you think?2008-11-30 02:59:00

Author:
ConfusedCartman
Posts: 3729

I'm up for it.

Thanks for giving me a second chance. I truly do believe I have changed for the benefit of the forums.:arg:		2008-11-30 03:01:00

Author:
Unknown User

I'm up for it.

Thanks for giving me a second chance. I truly do believe I have changed for the benefit of the forums.:arg:
Prove that's true, and your Mod status will be reinstated. I really hate doing this, but I think it's necessary.		2008-11-30 03:05:00

Author:
ConfusedCartman
Posts: 3729

Forgive me but I am critical, saying its temporary is pretty much saying "You'll get it back if your good", People can just put a falsehood mask until they get it back.

IMO a better way would be a voluntary resignation, and probably earn the title back next mod decision.

Difference? the first one has the person knowing he will get it back, the second one has the person himself/herself giving it up with an unsure possibility of ever getting it again		2008-11-30 03:07:00

Author:
Reshin
Posts: 1081

No problem. Tomorrow is my break day.

From both Code and LBPC. I see this as a new beginning.

"Endings Are Just Doorways to New Beginnings." :arg:		2008-11-30 03:07:00

Author:
Unknown User

personally i never saw anything wrong with you Marino. I loved talking to you i hope you feel better and take what others have said because it would be sad to see you go.2008-11-30 03:11:00

Author:
Frank-the-Bunny
Posts: 1246

No one saw my amazing Whale hug picture? Someone please state they saw it, lol jk but Wow Marino not a MOD anymore, ah well.2008-11-30 03:17:00

Author:
Whalio Cappuccino
Posts: 5250

Haha, honestly, I like it.

There is something so humbling about it. This is exactly what I needed.

If I had to describe this experience in two words it would be:

Tranquil & Cleansing.

:arg:

http://www.beverleylu.com/TranquilEvening.jpg

http://www.anti-aging.bz/images/waterfall-cleansing.jpg		2008-11-30 03:19:00

Author:
Unknown User

That's technically three words, but meh, who's counting? 2008-11-30 03:20:00

Author:
Whalio Cappuccino
Posts: 5250

i was where that whale hug picture took place, but i didn't get to hug it D:2008-11-30 03:21:00

Author:
Go,Mouse!
Posts: 388

LOL, why not? 2008-11-30 03:23:00

Author:
Unknown User

Oh my god! The time has come, this is proof he has changed! Hug me!!

http://farm1.static.flickr.com/162/364931966_abac1e81ce.jpg?v=0

Don't even ask how I found that picture...

Sooo... Is that you? or is that really some random picture of a random kid hugging a random whale? lol		2008-11-30 03:31:00

Author:
KAPBAM
Posts: 1348

It's random, and omg Mouse you didn't hug me? I hate you, jk 2008-11-30 03:35:00

Author:
Whalio Cappuccino
Posts: 5250

Whale, I'm sorry to burst the bubble like that but...

He isn't just hugging the whale.		2008-11-30 03:39:00

Author:
Stix489
Posts: 2080

Dude, your grossy.2008-11-30 03:41:00

Author:
Whalio Cappuccino
Posts: 5250

I know, isn't it just awesome? =D

95% of normal guys would have thought about this :/		2008-11-30 03:42:00

Author:
Stix489
Posts: 2080

Alright guys, let's get back on topic.

Marino... I honestly don't feel you really changed. You ignored how mouse and I felt, and always made the excuse "but I apologized." I don't think you actually feel bad for what you've done, more that you didn't want to lose our friendship and your modship. This apology is not going to be enough for what you did, if you've really changed, you'll have to accept that, and not back sass me every time I try to tell you what you did wrong.

I just don't know what to believe anymore. :/		2008-11-30 04:17:00

Author:
Code1337
Posts: 3476

Woah, didn't see that coming...2008-11-30 04:18:00

Author:
Whalio Cappuccino
Posts: 5250

Ok, guys, I just had another breakthrough while trying to go to sleep. I couldn't sleep. Hence, why I'm up right now. I just kept thinking about everything that Reshin was saying about power. I realized... RESHIN IS RIGHT. He said that he would be able to tell if I really changed if I stepped down from my mod position. I thought this was ridiculous because I thought being a mod had nothing to do with ego, but then I remembered: "Power corrupts. Absolute power corrupts absolutely." This was exactly what happened to me. Being a mod, having power, corrupted me. Now, I'm not saying that the other mods are corrupt, but I'm sure saying I became corrupt. I remember the simpler days this summer when being a mod wasn't even on my mind. I thought of brilliant ideas, ideas that made me happy, I was so excited to implement these ideas when LittleBigPlanet came out, which seemed like an eternity. What happened to those ideas? Why aren't I implementing them like I said I would? Now I know why: I lost grasp of my priorities. No longer did this seem like a LittleBigPlanet community, it seemed like a popularity contest: Who can make the funniest posts? Who can edit the most posts? Who can get the most reputation? I see the error of my ways now. What a fool I was. This community is based on LITTLEBIGPLANET. Look at my recent posts. How many of them have anything to do with LBP? Just a few. Hell, I haven't even played LBP in.. I can't even remember the last time. My point that I need to make is that I do not want to be a mod. Thanks for the second chance Cartman, but I don't want it. I hate what did power turned me into, and I want to go back to my humbler, imagination-crazy version of me. I want to be a pirate again, not just some pseudo-intellectual who tries to impress everybody. These forums is for the COMMUNITY, not for the LULZ. I take pride in being a small part of this ever-growing Sackcommunity, and I have decided to return to my roots, or cotton, rather. I take pride in being one of many, instead of the elite few.

Thank you everybody so much, this has been a life-changing experience that I will never forget. I love you all and I look forward to playing more LittleBigPlanet! :arg:		2008-11-30 04:25:00

Author:
Unknown User

Marino, I would love to see the effects of this breakthrough, but honestly. It seems like you're attention seeking more than anything. :/2008-11-30 04:33:00

Author:
Code1337
Posts: 3476

Code, as your friend, or former friend (if you no longer consider me a friend), I respect your choice to not believe that I have changed.

I question whether you have read my post with an open mind, or if it was just an angry read, but that is up to you.

I will miss you. I am always here for you if you need me, and just remember: all I want is for you to be happy.

Good night, and have a happy life, whatever you may do with it. :arg:		2008-11-30 04:37:00

Author:
Unknown User

Hm hm hm... I like this thread.
It's chuckle-worthy.

I enjoy watching independents believe that they need others, it's just so interesting watching them realize that that isn't entirely true.

This thread is like a soap-opera gone wrong.

Code, you can continue telling Marino that you don't believe him, but his replies will all be the same, insisting on what he believes is fact.
The only way to tell his sincerity would be to watch him as time passes.

You lot are a funny bunch.		2008-11-30 04:44:00

Author:
ScytheOfGrim
Posts: 438

And you're dead! 2008-11-30 04:46:00

Author:
Stix489
Posts: 2080

Ok, guys, I just had another breakthrough while trying to go to sleep. I couldn't sleep. Hence, why I'm up right now. I just kept thinking about everything that Reshin was saying about power. I realized... RESHIN IS RIGHT. He said that he would be able to tell if I really changed if I stepped down from my mod position. I thought this was ridiculous because I thought being a mod had nothing to do with ego, but then I remembered: "Power corrupts. Absolute power corrupts absolutely." This was exactly what happened to me. Being a mod, having power, corrupted me. Now, I'm not saying that the other mods are corrupt, but I'm sure saying I became corrupt. I remember the simpler days this summer when being a mod wasn't even on my mind. I thought of brilliant ideas, ideas that made me happy, I was so excited to implement these ideas when LittleBigPlanet came out, which seemed like an eternity. What happened to those ideas? Why aren't I implementing them like I said I would? Now I know why: I lost grasp of my priorities. No longer did this seem like a LittleBigPlanet community, it seemed like a popularity contest: Who can make the funniest posts? Who can edit the most posts? Who can get the most reputation? I see the error of my ways now. What a fool I was. This community is based on LITTLEBIGPLANET. Look at my recent posts. How many of them have anything to do with LBP? Just a few. Hell, I haven't even played LBP in.. I can't even remember the last time. My point that I need to make is that I do not want to be a mod. Thanks for the second chance Cartman, but I don't want it. I hate what did power turned me into, and I want to go back to my humbler, imagination-crazy version of me. I want to be a pirate again, not just some pseudo-intellectual who tries to impress everybody. These forums is for the COMMUNITY, not for the LULZ. I take pride in being a small part of this ever-growing Sackcommunity, and I have decided to return to my roots, or cotton, rather. I take pride in being one of many, instead of the elite few.

Thank you everybody so much, this has been a life-changing experience that I will never forget. I love you all and I look forward to playing more LittleBigPlanet! :arg:


a few things here...

1. Why did you say "Reshin is right" like it was the first time >_>
2. lol, thats what was going on in my mind when I denied modship...(in a way...)
3. You have my respect... you have a clean slate in my book

As for Code's theory of you giving up your modship to grab attention, sounds real to me. The grammar on that post is pretty bad so you were probably trying to sleep and decided to get it off your concience or something...

now to keep this from being oh so melodramatic.
-One down.... BWAHAHAHAHAAHAH!!!!!		2008-11-30 05:55:00

Author:
Reshin
Posts: 1081

Gasp, the day has come, RUN EVERYONE, RUN FOR YOUR LIVES!2008-11-30 06:04:00

Author:
Whalio Cappuccino
Posts: 5250

Like the sands through the hour glass, so go the Days of our Lives.

And on that note I think we'll close this. Thank you for your participation

Cheers QuozL		2008-11-30 07:47:00

Author:
QuozL
Posts: 921


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