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So, I guess as to not seem selfish, I'll make this thread open to any single venting issue out there from anyone. It feels rather awkward sharing my own problems and not letting others share theirs as well.

Anyhoo, I just really feel like sharing that this week, and the last, have been one of the worst time periods of my life. I've been really sick (nothing serious, thank god) and I've been having really deep family issues, and really serious issues with this girl I like...or, er, love.

It's been really depressing, and I'm barely able to sleep at night or function properly throughout the day. Sometimes I just think that nothing good ever happens to me.

On top of all this, the girl issue happened on my birthday, and followed on from there. So it wasn't such a fantastic birthday, as you could imagine.

So yeah, I just felt like sharing my thoughts and emotions, because sharing them really makes you feel better.

So your turn. If you wish to vent about anything, do so in here, and I'm sure it'll help somehow.
2009-07-13 00:50:00

Author:
Stix489
Posts: 2080


I have no friends outside LBPC.

... does that count? :/

Anyway... yeah, I've gotten over that, but... sorry D:
2009-07-13 01:01:00

Author:
RockSauron
Posts: 10882


It's kind of hard for me to relate to how you feel because i'm not in that situation at the moment, but i get it all the time and it's horrible D:

I've always felt like a bit of an outcast because i've never had any good friends away from the internet.
I rarely get called out or anything, they only talk to me when i'm at school and i've never known anyone in person that i can relate to or trust :/

It hits the worst when i'm away from school though and i'm stuck in my room for weeks without talking to anyone, in that situation the smallest bit of negativity can trigger depression.
And now i have 3 months without school so i'm fearing the worst really o_o

I'm ok at the moment but things could be better
2009-07-13 01:17:00

Author:
Dexiro
Posts: 2100


So, I guess as to not seem selfish, I'll make this thread open to any single venting issue out there from anyone. It feels rather awkward sharing my own problems and not letting others share theirs as well.

Anyhoo, I just really feel like sharing that this week, and the last, have been one of the worst time periods of my life. I've been really sick (nothing serious, thank god) and I've been having really deep family issues, and really serious issues with this girl I like...or, er, love.

It's been really depressing, and I'm barely able to sleep at night or function properly throughout the day. Sometimes I just think that nothing good ever happens to me.

On top of all this, the girl issue happened on my birthday, and followed on from there. So it wasn't such a fantastic birthday, as you could imagine.

So yeah, I just felt like sharing my thoughts and emotions, because sharing them really makes you feel better.

So your turn. If you wish to vent about anything, do so in here, and I'm sure it'll help somehow.

Been there, dude. Keep your head up. It's hard dealing with all of those things by themselves; I'm sure it's extra hard trying to get through all of it at once. I know you don't really know me, but I'm here for you if you want to talk it over; I'm an excellent listener.

In the spirit of sharing, I'm going through some family issues as well. My paternal grandmother - whom I love like my mother - is battling very advanced leukemia. We're not sure how long she has, but her body has stopped responding to chemotherapy and they've all but stopped treatment. We've known about it since late February so it would be an understatement to say these past few months have been the hardest of my life. I love the woman so much that all I want is what's best for her. The bitter part of that is it means having to let her go as well.

Either way, I've somehow gotten close to accepting this weird twist of fate, but it won't make it any easier when her time finally does come. You've all heard it before, but I'll say it again: live each day as it were your last; you never know what unwelcome change may be just on the other side of the hour...
2009-07-13 03:09:00

Author:
supersickie
Posts: 1366


and really serious issues with this girl I like...or, er, love.

On top of all this, the girl issue happened on my birthday, and followed on from there. So it wasn't such a fantastic birthday, as you could imagine.






W-w-WHAT!?!?

Your having problems with a girl? Did you show her your pokemans?

btw what's a girl?

I'm depressed because I just watched Requiem for a Dream...

Still wasn't as good as Donnie Darko though. That "everyone must die alone" stuff was depressing as hell. Watch Requiem for a Dream, it will make you feel better about yourself as long as you're not some kind of desperate junkie. Don't, on the other hand, watch Donnie Darko.
2009-07-13 03:27:00

Author:
qrtda235566
Posts: 3664


I have no actual friends seeing as how I live basically in the middle of nowhere. However, hopefully that'll all change in about a month when school starts up.2009-07-13 03:46:00

Author:
Arkei
Posts: 1432


Anyhoo, I just really feel like sharing that this week, and the last, have been one of the worst time periods of my life. I've been really sick (nothing serious, thank god) and I've been having really deep family issues, and really serious issues with this girl I like...or, er, love.

On top of all this, the girl issue happened on my birthday, and followed on from there. So it wasn't such a fantastic birthday, as you could imagine.


Indeed, the girl I love (Admiting it just now publicly.. on an internet forum. (Man I suck so much)) started going out with this other dude some few months after I started liking her.... I've been trying to let go but it's been heck.




I've always felt like a bit of an outcast because i've never had any good friends away from the internet.
I rarely get called out or anything, they only talk to me when i'm at school and i've never known anyone in person that i can relate to or trust :/


My friends have backstabbed me various times, although they've always been trustworthy in a way, but some time ago I've grown disconnected from them, and it's made me REALLY depressed because I've known them since like he 3rd grade. Luckily I have 3 best friends whom I've grown up with and they understand me, 2 are my cousins and he other has become to be like a brother to me. Unfortunately, they live 200 miles away from my current establishment.




In the spirit of sharing, I'm going through some family issues as well. My paternal grandmother - whom I love like my mother - is battling very advanced leukemia. We're not sure how long she has, but her body has stopped responding to chemotherapy and they've all but stopped treatment. We've known about it since late February so it would be an understatement to say these past few months have been the hardest of my life. I love the woman so much that all I want is what's best for her. The bitter part of that is it means having to let her go as well.

Either way, I've somehow gotten close to accepting this weird twist of fate, but it won't make it any easier when her time finally does come. You've all heard it before, but I'll say it again: live each day as it were your last; you never know what unwelcome change may be just on the other side of the hour...


Wow. What I'm dealing with is nothing compared to that. Must suck badly. Really good advice though.

Recap; Secret tragic crush, grown disconnected from old friends, best friends live 200 miles away.

Current status: Not as good as some years back, but hope is not lost. I may move closer to my best friends and that would also mean a new start for me.
2009-07-13 05:42:00

Author:
Astrosimi
Posts: 2046


I remember having a crush on this one girl. She was a new student from Las Vegas, and was finding a way to fit in. Being the social weirdo I was, I helped her fit in. I started growing fond of her, interacted more with her, and pretty soon.... I find out she's a lesbian. Being the sensible Catholic I was, this was shocking. I'm still friends with this girl, but now my dad despises her. Oh, and she's Episcopalean, so that contributed too.

My friends have serious videogame addictions. Half I know are Wii-nies, and the other half are X-bots. Both sides still pity me for buying a PS3 (FTW!!), and they bicker at the other console as much as they praise their own. The Wii guys are usually the anti-social types, staying in their own little worlds, feeding their pet lizard-things and what-not. The Xbox dudes are self-made studs (in a sense), feeding their Mountain Dew addictions, bowing under the power of Master Chief. And the only PS system guy I know has a broken PS2 and is involved in the "Underground PSP Game Exchange". Yet all spend their whole time over at my house playing MY PS3 on single-player. Weird.

Oh, and the Wii-nies now plead for me to come over to their houses, just so their parents can embarass them in front of me by limiting gaming hours and forcing them to do "outdoor activities" (gasp!).
2009-07-13 06:13:00

Author:
Outlaw-Jack
Posts: 5757


I remember having a crush on this one girl. She was a new student from Las Vegas, and was finding a way to fit in. Being the social weirdo I was, I helped her fit in. I started growing fond of her, interacted more with her, and pretty soon.... I find out she's a lesbian. Being the sensible Catholic I was, this was shocking. I'm still friends with this girl, but now my dad despises her. Oh, and she's Episcopalean, so that contributed too.

My friends have serious videogame addictions. Half I know are Wii-nies, and the other half are X-bots. Both sides still pity me for buying a PS3 (FTW!!), and they bicker at the other console as much as they praise their own. The Wii guys are usually the anti-social types, staying in their own little worlds, feeding their pet lizard-things and what-not. The Xbox dudes are self-made studs (in a sense), feeding their Mountain Dew addictions, bowing under the power of Master Chief. And the only PS system guy I know has a broken PS2 and is involved in the "Underground PSP Game Exchange". Yet all spend their whole time over at my house playing MY PS3 on single-player. Weird.

Oh, and the Wii-nies now plead for me to come over to their houses, just so their parents can embarass them in front of me by limiting gaming hours and forcing them to do "outdoor activities" (gasp!).

No offense mate, but I'm instantly not liking your dad... Oh how I DESPISE people who judge homosexuals (and others) simply because they're not like the average Christian (Or Catholic, in extreme cases).

But mate, you have it good. Keep your chin up.
2009-07-13 06:20:00

Author:
Astrosimi
Posts: 2046


It's not like I know much the people on here, but it looks like trough internet I'm a lot less shy. So here it goes.

Two years ago I felt deeply in love with a person, wich made me live the worst and also the best year of my life. It simply was intense. But, as I said, I'm shy, so I couldn't bring myself to tell that person anything about how I felt. I was scared that a "no" as an answer could bring me down. So down.

The time passed and after of one year of feeling so very alone in terms of love relationships, since I never had one, I started dating another person.
It's not that I really loved that person, but I thought that, with time, real love might come. I even lost my virginity with that person. Not that is something that I regret, after that I thought virginity was "overrated" (if my poor english is making sense).

But that romantic relationship seemed not to lead to nothing. Even if the person I was dating seemed so love me so much, wich I definetely appreciatted, I couldn't bring myself to really feel what I felt when I really was in love, 2 years ago, as I said. It was so **** frustrating, wanting to love somebody and feeling unable to. Whenever I said "I love you" I found myself lying in order not to break the other's heart. Not so long ago, I broke with that person, and I believe I've never seen anybody so broken inside as when I told her/him all the truth about how I felt about our relationship.

Now I seem to be just where I started, just that a little bit more frustrated, with less expectatives of ever feeling the same I felt 2 years ago. I mean... ****ed hells, why didn't I declare my love then? I blame me, I blame my shyness.
2009-07-13 08:27:00

Author:
Keldur
Posts: 628


Thank you everybody for understanding, and sharing your own stories.


Indeed, the girl I love (Admiting it just now publicly.. on an internet forum. (Man I suck so much)) started going out with this other dude some few months after I started liking her.... I've been trying to let go but it's been heck.

This is exactly my situation. Except that after a few months of us liking each other, she decided to start seeing someone else. Confusing as all hell.
2009-07-13 12:52:00

Author:
Stix489
Posts: 2080


This is exactly my situation. Except that after a few months of us liking each other, she decided to start seeing someone else. Confusing as all hell.

Get ready to have your mind blown: my wife and I had a very casual thing going on when we were juniors in high school, but she was head over heels for my best friend. It was the hardest thing in the world, but I had to let her explore that relationship. All in all, the went on a couple of dates, he tried to get a little "fresh" with her (man, I feel like I'm in the 1950's using that word), and she shot him down. A month later and she's back to me. I certainly made her aware that it was wrong for choosing him over me in the first place, but I didn't beat the horse to death either.

Eight plus years later we have a wonderful son, and magnificent marriage, and the aforementioned best friend is still my best bud to date. I guess the moral of my story is to be patient; there really is truth in the saying that if you love something you should set it free. I'm not saying it will pay off for everyone, but it was definitely the right move for me. I knew even then at the tender age of sixteen that I was in love and my decision to let her go paid off huge when it came to establishing our friendship.

Like I said, I'm up for one-on-one discussion with anyone on here because I'm not so far removed from where a lot of you are now. I very much remember what it was like to be a teenager and am willing to listen if anyone needs an ear.

If not, just remember to breathe easy; you'll make it through no matter how bad it may seem now...
2009-07-13 16:43:00

Author:
supersickie
Posts: 1366


Don't worry pal, things will turn out well in the end, be it the way you want to turn out or otherwise.

I remember when I was going out with my ex about 3 years ago. I had totally fallen for her and the relationship was great. But then she dumped me just before she went to uni and to say I was crushed would be an understatement. I (secretly) ended up crying in 6th form a few times, and dreamt about her regularly for about 3 months after. The last time I saw her... I knew it was going to be the last time as we had talked about it ending. I pretty much begged for her to change her mind, but that probably made things worse. To this day, I still haven't spoken to her in person. I saw her about a month after it ended in a local pub, we even looked at eachother at the same time, but we didn't talk. We have spoken now though on the internet, and we are friends.

But now I am with my current girlfriend, and she is probably one of the best things to ever happen to me. About 4 months after it ended with my ex, I went to a small gathering with friends and I met this girl who I clicked with straight away a month later we started going out, and that was 2 and a half years ago now. Despite going through one of the most depressing times of my life, it was worth it to be with her. Ofcourse there has been a few things that have happened along the way... at one point I ended it with her because I was just confused with stuff (was in first year of uni then), and ofcourse I almost realised too late that what I lost was what I really wanted the most. And being at hers when her mum died of cancer was the most upsetting thing I have ever been through in my entire life. I couldn't even begin to fathom how it was like for her. But just thinking about her reaction still brings me to tears. But through all this, we have been extremely happy together, and the hard times have just brought us closer.

So what I'm saying I suppose is keep your chin up stix, cause you never know what's around the corner in life If things aren't meant to be, something even better will happen later in life.

A sort of opposite story to supersickies as I lost the girl, but a happy one nonetheless. Proving that things do indeed turn out well in the end I know it isn't of much use saying that right now, but you'll be alright dude.
2009-07-13 17:21:00

Author:
ryryryan
Posts: 3767


Oh, man, I can relate to some of the stuff that's been said here... Anyway, I guess I'll put in my two cents.

So, like some other people have said, I don't have many friends outside of the interwebz in general. My best friend lives in California and I've never actually met her... Kinda sad, right? Well, I've been going to the gym for about a year, and so I'm starting to get a bit more self-confidence and stuff. I just kinda hate how even with all that, I can't just go up to a girl and talk to her. For the last 16 years, I've been the skinny kid, who got made fun of for being small and weak and short and stuff. Well, I hit some sort of growth spurt last summer or thereabouts, so now I'm not so short anymore. Going to the gym has gotten me some muscle mass and I've gained some weight, so that's all taken care of, too. I just have about 0 ladies-skill. I had a girlfriend back a couple years ago, but she left me for another guy after like 9 months or something. Hey, she wants to be like that, her loss, I say, I'm fine with that.

So, now, there's this girl in my class (well she would be if it wasn't summer at the mo'...) and I can't figure out if I like her or not... During the day, I hardly ever think about her, I just go about my day. But at night, when I'm sitting in my room reading or playing video games or something, my mind wanders and I keep thinking to myself "Tomorrow, I'll call her up and ask her out or something" but I never do it. I don't even know if she'd go out with me, anyway. We've gone to some movies together, but just as friends or something, I'm not really sure... Sometimes I think I should just forget about her and enjoy my freedom while it lasts, y'know?

Speaking of freedom, I'm quite glad to be away from school now. Finally I can get away from all the people who seem to live only to make my life miserable... Seems like all they do is think up new ways to make me feel worthless, but I'm free now and I've only got one more year here, then it's off to college and a fresh start. I feel like I can't talk to any of my "friends" about what I really like to do (listen to metal, read manga, play RPGs, etc.) because they just don't do things I do. To them, anime is Pokemon and metal is weird, they'd rather listen to popular music (which sucks, I think). Sure I can talk about video games, but they play Call of Duty and Fallout, when I'm at home playing LBP or Kingdom Hearts (came out when I was in 5th grade, and I still love it). So, basically, I'm just afflicted with the general outcast stuff. My parents are all good, though. I've gotten my dad to start listening to Disturbed, which is a good start, and I got my mum to play LBP with me last night. I dunno, I spend most of my time on random forums (like this one) listening to metal on Pandora (which they limited for 40 hours a month, and I'm not happy about that). Sure, my life isn't the worst, but it sure isn't the best, either. Well, I do still have the generic thoughts about feeling like no matter what I do, it's never good enough, but I think that's just a part of being 16...
2009-07-13 18:50:00

Author:
dandygandy2704
Posts: 1002


...Well, I do still have the generic thoughts about feeling like no matter what I do, it's never good enough, but I think that's just a part of being 16...

This.

It's part of life to feel awkward and expendable, guys. That's not to say those feelings are any easier to deal with, but there should be some consolation in knowing that you all are far from alone. Just continue to stay true to yourselves and happier days will come before you know it.
2009-07-13 19:19:00

Author:
supersickie
Posts: 1366


Wow, guys, you don't know how good it feels to just know other people are going through these same things....2009-07-13 20:24:00

Author:
Astrosimi
Posts: 2046


So, I guess as to not seem selfish, I'll make this thread open to any single venting issue out there from anyone. It feels rather awkward sharing my own problems and not letting others share theirs as well.

Anyhoo, I just really feel like sharing that this week, and the last, have been one of the worst time periods of my life. I've been really sick (nothing serious, thank god) and I've been having really deep family issues, and really serious issues with this girl I like...or, er, love.

It's been really depressing, and I'm barely able to sleep at night or function properly throughout the day. Sometimes I just think that nothing good ever happens to me.

On top of all this, the girl issue happened on my birthday, and followed on from there. So it wasn't such a fantastic birthday, as you could imagine.

So yeah, I just felt like sharing my thoughts and emotions, because sharing them really makes you feel better.

So your turn. If you wish to vent about anything, do so in here, and I'm sure it'll help somehow.

Being sick isn't a problem as it's "nothing serious".

Don't know what your deep family issues are but it's FAMILY.....We all have problems but in the end, family is for life, so we tend to get through these things.

And I no you must like this girl very much or you wouldn't of felt so bad as to come on here and mention it.
Remember that there is plenty more fish in the sea. You don't want to here that now, but it is VERY true. Your a great looking dude (no homo ) and the right girl will come along eventually. One that will want to be with you for who you are. You have a great sense of humour and a catch for any woman. Shame you don't live in London as I would have loads of women to hook you up with (and don't add geography to your downfalls now I've said that)
But I will give you one piece of advice that you should remember for the rest of your life.
WOMEN ARE A DIFFERENT SPECIES
Seriously, they say that Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus.
And that is sooooo true. So DON'T try and work them out or their logic, as they don't know it themselves

Seriously though dude, we all get like this now and then when we think nothing ever goes right for us.
And we also think it will last forever and it's the end of the world and all that rubbish. BUT your gonna have a great life with many great people that will be part of your life in some way or another (you just can't see it at the moment). Chin up son and just get through it to the next chapter of your life
2009-07-13 22:31:00

Author:
dorien
Posts: 2767


On a light note:http://www.freewebs.com/socratties/rainbows_1024x768.jpg
Rainbows and Fairies for Everyone!

And on a serious note:
I think everyone has been down on their luck at some point in their life. The most important thing is to look up, because even if it gets so bad it could not possibly get worse, look on the bright side and say, "Well things can only get better from here." Everyone loses a close loved one at some point in their life, and if they haven't they are among a lucky few. What should help to alleviate some of this pain is taking solace in the fact that you aren't alone and there is always someone to help share your pain, whether it be someone close to you, or even just random strangers on an internet forum, its a part of life, albeit a dark and grim one. Keep your chin up, and look past all these temporary things, they'll all be just a pixel on the overall digital portrait of your life. I've learned to never worry about girl/woman problems, there are always other fish in the sea, and eventually you will find one sweet fish and marry it. I don't think I need to go on and on about this, I've said the basics, and they cover pretty much everything life can throw at you. Be optimistic, life's too short to worry or be negative. Don't live in the past, live in the present, and live for the future.
2009-07-13 22:50:00

Author:
BSprague
Posts: 2325


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